about 6 years ago
My daughter is battling Stage 4 Met Breast Cancer at age 25.
My daughter was dxed on April 22nd this year with met breast cancer, spread to bone (compression fractures c6 and t6-t11. liver and spleen. Lungs questionable, they thought they saw a few spots. On June 27th after she opted out of chemo, very sick, 3 infections, and she decided quality is better than than so call quantity they are trying to give her. She also had palliative radiation, ruined her esophagus and literally burnt her from the inside out. My daughter was told her cancer incurable, she has probably had it 8 yrs and she might live 12 to 24 months with treatment and 6 to 18 without. She has experienced weight loss, loss of appetite, hot flashes, nausea, vomiting, lethargy, enlarged spleen, discomfort in the shoulder, back, ribs and she as Ascites (swelling of the abdomen due to liver holding fluid) and a heaviest under rib cage, and of course depression. My daughters calcium was 17.6 (norm is 9) and she was pregnant with her first child. Pregnancy of course had to be terminated. It has been a nightmare. She has undergone two kyphoplasty procedures to stablize spine (cement like substance is injected between vertebrates. She has lot everything and now living back home with me (her mom). Today she just started crying and apologize because she just couldn't stop, my heart was just breaking. I honestly do not know how i am going to continue handling watching my only daughter die. I do wonder how long she will live, I wonder how I will remain strong, how I will stand at her funeral. I feel like I was kicked in the stomach and that feeling has not gone away since April 22nd. Having to tell my daughter 24 at the time, that she had stage 4 cancer that spread and that she had to terminate her pregnancy was the hardest thing I have ever had to do.