Grandma begged us to move in. Our family thinks we're taking advantage of her. What can we do?
I'm a 32-year old woman who's been going back to college for the past 5 years. My father is irresponsible and always has been. This means he was the only one of his 3 siblings who had nothing to lose when my grandparents (his parents) needed someone to move in and help. But he didn't really help out at all - he has temper-tantrums, is messy and hordish, and ever since my grandfather died 4 or so years ago, he's been ignoring my grandma.
almost 3 years ago, my grandma begged me and my fiancee to move in with her - only 2 weeks before college started. We hustled to do so, because my dad was driving her insane and not taking care of her. We cared for her along with some day-time care-givers, for 2 years. Over this time, the rest of the family didn't seem to notice how much me and my partner were helping. My grandma chose me to latch onto as her "hated person" (she's always been bigoted against women anyway) and so has been telling my family all these terrible things I'm doing like "ignoring her (studying), "not cooking for her" (cooking stuff she refuses to eat out of spite) "leaving messes in the kitchen" (they're her plates that she forgets to clean up!). Turns out she began telling everyone that WE begged HER to let us move in (which was patently not true at all.) If I ever get emotionally hurt or depressed by the mean things she says, and she happens to see me crying, she tells everyone that I am acting like a baby, or having an "episode" and need counseling.
Finally, this past year my fiancee and I both went to Asia to study abroad. She was very angry at this. She even went so far as to tell me that our friends should not be having a going-away party for us at all, because "nobody will go anyway"; we also overheard her (as she is deaf so speaks loudly) talking about having our stuff "thrown away" as soon as we left: though she quickly changed her story when asked about it.
My grandma is in a wheelchair, has dementia and it's getting worse. My dad always made her depressed and angry with his callous disregard for her safety, and how discourteous he is to his own mother. The problem now is that my dad has gotten a girlfriend (which is good) but he's moving out to live with her. My SO and I are still overseas, and will be until Sept.
Grandma has "kicked" both me and my SO "out" with my father, as well. She doesn't want anyone there. But she's 200 lbs, no muscle, and very absent-minded, easily lonely and depressed. I'm very worried about what will happen to her, but also very angry at how the family is treating us. Everyone outside the family sees how badly my dad has been and voices strongly that me and my SO were instrumental in helping my grandma the past 2 years. But even the few relatives who are now seeing the light (seeing how things fell apart as soon as we went overseas) think she'll be okay.
Also I didn't mention, but my grandma is 91 years old.
Should I just accept the fact that my father's irresponsibility will always color how my other family members see me? It's like they're taking "the apple doesn't fall far from the tree" literally, but I've done my best in my life to be the opposite of my dad. I feel like I've sacrificed a great deal of my life (for no pay, btw - we had to pay rent to my grandma while my dad didn't) only for my family to attack me.
Ironically my SO's family loves me and is very supportive. I just don't know what to do. I feel am getting not only burn-out from care-taking, but also from the rest of my family believing the delusions my grandma tells about me. It's also going to make returning especially difficult, as we now have no real place to return to in America. When we get back, where will we go?
Even though your Grandma begged you to move in and your family thinks you and your significant other are taking advantage of her, you did what you could.
It's time to move on.
Despite my belief in "sticking in there" and fighting the heroic battles (my husband says I needlessly bang my head against the brick wall), I believe yours is one battle that has been fought valiantly for two years with no win in sight.
You're in a relationship. You're young. Why drag your fiancée further into this mess?
Your grandmother did a good thing by evicting your "irresponsible" father.
You have done what you can. It's time now to be rewarded with the kindness and support you receive from your fiancée's family. Are they in America? Perhaps you can stay with them when you return from studying abroad in Asia. If not, then how about staying with friends, temporarily? Otherwise, given what you have written here, jail seems like a decent alternative.
If you are tempted to return to your grandmother's home, it will have to be with very clearly outlined agreement--you and your fiancée are to be paid as caregivers. All expenses relating to your grandmother's care are to be paid by her estate. Also, your family is not to interfere.
Honestly, though, given what you write, please don't return to that setting. You don't deserve that kind of life and it may cost you your long-term relationship with your fiancée.
Thank you so much! This is the OP. Your words really mean a lot to me (and to my fiancee!)
My family always treated me kind of badly even when I was younger, all due to being the "offspring" of my dad, and it's one reason I cut ties with them when I was 19 (after my dad decided to kick me out and move across the country on a whim.)
But there's always a part of us that wants to be loved, and that doesn't want to believe the truth. I guess that part of me took over and I thought that maybe I could really convince them that I wasn't as terrible as they thought.
You're right, and you've echoed much what my SO has been saying for a long time, but I just feared he was biased towards me (he is very protective and actively hates my family now after this behavior)
Your reply has really helped my self-esteem so much! I was feeling really down-trodden and just worthless because my whole family (younger cousins included) all are echoing the same song and dance and it starts to feel like you're in an alternate reality where reason becomes insanity, and crazy is the norm.
My younger cousin (22 years old) is also in college but when Grandma asked her to move in while we were away, she flat-out refused, and also said she couldn't do anything to help at all. Guess what? Grandma was fine with that. Not bitter in the least.
I'm the whipping "boy" I guess, but I feel really emboldened by your frank assessment. I cannot thank you enough for helping me to see the value in myself once again. It was starting to become a little too much like "Cinderella" except the "prince" was an indentured servant also . . .
It's time for us to move on with our lives and leave the rest of the "kids" to take care of their mother.