Watching a loved one with end-stage dementia is a unique kind of spiritual and emotional drain. Loss and hopelessness can feel overwhelming. Indeed, some caregivers even consider suicide when the meaninglessness of the present seems to blot out past and future.
If you've had pervasive dark thoughts, please do this:
Realize that sharing your feelings is a critical first step to showing your own self the same loving kindness you've shown the person with dementia.
Confide your sadness to a member of the clergy, a trained counselor, or a nonjudgmental friend. His or her perspective can help shift your current perceptions, which, while real, don't reflect your entire life story.
Don't delay. Dementia care tends to narrow one's world and therefore distort it. Even when you feel very alone, there's a world of interested others out there who can help bring you back into the light you deserve.