Coping witha spouse with diabetes
My husband and I have been married for 34 years. We have 3 sons and 2 beautiful grandchildren. My husband has had type I Diabetes for 44 years. We have been through too much to mention. My main concern is the fact that I live my life waiting for the other shoe to drop. In 2005 he had a leg amputated. In 2006 he had double heart bypass surgery. He got a MRSA infection and spent a total of 35 days in the hospital. He needed three surgeries and a plastic surgeon to close his chest. He came home with 6 drains in his chest that I had to empty and measure several times a day. In 2007 he went into a diabetic coma and his kidneys shut down. He was on dialysis from November 2007 till July 2008 when oour oldest son donated a kidney to him. After that I thought that maybe I could let my guard down. However, while the transplant was a blessing, he is not the same person. He is having trouble with his eyesight and willbe undergoing eye surgery next week. This will be another in a series of hospitalizations and outpatient surgeries that have been going on regularly since 1996. I see a therapist and he told me I have Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I am 55 years old and do not feel that I have any future other than taking care of a very sick man. I had hoped that when we got older we we would be able to travel and enjoy ourselves. My family and friends are always telling me how amazing I am and how well I cope. I only do it because it is what needs to be done and I no no other way to be anymore. I have lost a part of myself in trying to make my husband whole. The therapist asked me what I thought life was. I told him it is a one day ticket to Disneyworld and I am trying to get on all of the rides before the park closes.