Hi Anonymous,

I don't have great advice for you because I am not in your same situation, but I wanted you to know that I am, right now, sending huge positive thoughts and prayers your way.  May your be triumphant in your fight!  As a fellow mom, I can understand wanting to throw everything I had behind getting well.  Is there, possibly, a support group in your area for you?   Have you talked to your doctors about finding other means of support as you deal with this illness?   If you haven't, maybe start talking to everyone you deal with about finding support.   Seek it out passionately because what you're going through is nearly impossible to handle alone. 

Thank you for your thoughts and prayers. I have a doctors appointment comming up I will ask. I live in a rural area but have asked about support groups I think the nearest is like 1 or 2 hours away. I dont always feel up to traveling.  I am tired of dealing with this on my own.  I will look into those great suggestions though. Thank you so much.

As a mother also, I know your children are your reason for fighting every step of the way. I have not been to your level of cancer but I guess every one of us who receives the diagnosis at least goes through the first parts of fear, anxiety, people who can't take it that we thought would be there for us. There are bound to be support groups close by -- it is ALWAYS best to find others that you can identify with - others who understand the need to hide your fear one minute and then let it all flow out the next. You need a place to release because you don't in front of your children. I am sending you sweet, loving energy and light to surround you. I know you posted 3 months ago but I just now found it - I hope you are getting stronger each day.

well being a child of a parent that died of cancer(im 12 now, was 10 then) my dad did a great job(: we understood what je was going threw(we=me and my little sis 8 now 6 then) what he did was sat down and talked to us about what was happening in his body. What we also did as a family, talked to another family that had lost a loved one to cancer. Though my dad was way positive, and none of us ever thought he would die(he had to of been the toughest man alive, i honestly do believe that) talking to the other family still helped, and now were good friends and they helped us go through our grieving process, which for me actually started when he was sick....you sound tough, fight to the end gurly!!!

love you with all my heart.....your in my prayers, and next youth group ill tell my friends to pray for you(:

-<3 Caroline

wow Caroline that is so inspiring, 4 sme1 ur age i m 19 bt i hv never gne thru such a thng, u must b very strong. I wi pay 4 ol u guys nd i knw God answers prayers..