No matter how much notice you have, it's still hard.

A dear family friend of ours passed away yesterday morning.  She was 95 and had cancer.  Her final decline was quick in that her family learned her cancer had returned about a week ago.  She was unresponsive since Monday of this week. 

Even though we can rationalize all day long that she was in her 90s and had cancer, it's still so sad.  When I talked to my sister-in-law about it, she said something like "A life was lost today and I guess it's okay to be a little sad."  And she's right.  It's okay to be a lot sad, actually.

I haven't seen Ruth in awhile and she's been saying to us "I hope I get to see you again" each time we parted for the past ten years.   Yet despite those facts, I'm grieving about her passing.  My heart is breaking for her daughter and son-in-law, who has been her caregivers for years.  My heart is breaking for her grandson, who was so fortunate to have a grandmother late into his 30's. 

I guess I just needed to get that off m chest.  It's not looking like we'll get to go to our friend's memorial service and I'm down about that.  While I'm almost always so uncomfortable at funerals, this is one I really wanted to attend to let her family know how much we care about them in their time of grief.

Thanks so much for listening everyone.