Hi Estrada!

I'm not entirely sure of your question - do you mean, how do you make yourself take time for yourself and not feel guilty for being away from your loved one who is ill?

You listen to your heart. What good are you to your loved one if you fall apart. I know its hard but you have to take time out for yourself. Seek counseling see your doctor you can only take so much. What do they tell you when on a plane in case of emergency. Supply the oxygen to yourself then small children you are traveling with. Its the same thing. Your grandpa would want you to take care of yourself. You know he loves you what if something happen to you with him still here. Remember you are a great kid listen to your gut it is telling you something

Like a wise person posted:

As they say on the airplane - in case of decompression, PUT YOUR OWN MASK ON FIRST and then help others.

I relate to you. You are a very good kid who has had a bigger load on her shoulders than she should.

My grandmother pushed me to my breaking point in July. I'd gone on vacation in January. While there, she packed up some of my belongings (sheets, towels), and had a neighbor put them in the leaky garage.

I only found out because I've spent the past 4 years cleaning out the shed and garage. She told me she did it. She only regrets it because she knows that was the last straw for me. I've been verbally, emotionally, and even physically abused by her. That was the last straw for me.

I was in a car accident 2.5 years ago. Life is short. I turn 37 tomorrow and want to live MY life, MY dreams. Not sit here and take the abuse anymore.

She has a brand new walker which she won't use. She was prescibed physical therapy for her knees which she refused. She resuses the B-12 shots. I'm even too stupid to pick up a prescription from the medical office for her. Everything is somehow my fault. I'm now accused of stealing money from her. It's been 5 years, and you know what - I no longer care. I want a life of my own.

12/16 - Real Estate Exam date. For another state. A dream I've had for years.

There comes a time when you have to think of YOU.

You know what? It's time for me to live, and say goodbye to all this.

PS: Listen to your heart. You have only one life to live.

It may be time for you to consider: Find a full time job. Move to your own apartment.

Hire help. Find a Medical Supply store in the area, they usually have a ton of business cards and brochures for assistance.

I've been very firm with my grandmother lately. "If Scott calls, can you give him a message". No....you have a portable phone, use it.

I feel like I am being a real bitch, but at the same time...she doesn't want to follow medical directions, so.....

Do not let your family control your life as mine has. They got to live their lives, you should get to live yours also.