Patricia, The ballons sound like a wonderful idea. So very true on your post. God Bless Denise

Denise, I think you have a great solution. We all need someone and if this is what helps, more power to you! :D

I am new here my name is michelle, my husband who was 53yr ,35 yrs married just passed away in april from colon cancer, I am so alone, I can relate to all of you . I am in a short sale can't afford the mortgage with out my husbands income harley road king had to go back after paying 500 amonth on that for 2.5 yrs that was hard to go threw with the bike my husband loved his bike and we rode every weekend .I have to sell our boat its on craigs list i hope that sells . I will go to an apt and try to go on, this all to new for me i cry everyday i miss him so much,And for my husband it was a painful passing and i was his caregiver to i can still see him in pain when i close my eyes. It just seems not real to me. thanks for listening

michelle

OH, Michelle. I'm so sorry for your loss and how much change you are having to go through. (((HUGS)))

Thanks Denise, Try it you'll be surprised that as you watch them going up they will dissapear, as if Heaven opened up to accept them. It is truly amazing how much hurt they take off of you. Patricia

Michelle, I know what you're going through and how alone and lost you feel. There are so many feelings and questions. I know how you feel about selling his things. I had to sell my husbands tools, his van, things that he worked so hard to get. I was angry that I had to sell them it wasn't fair. Why, he paid full price and someone was going to get them for half the price. I decided I was not going to sell nothing of his I would keep it all. His nephew ask me one day, Aunt Pat, think about it this way, Uncle Fidel, would be upset knowing his tools are sitting and rusting, you know how much good care he took of them, Some other man can use them, the only one that's going to want or need them is someone that does the same kind of work. He was right, The man that bought all the tools had, had his stolen a week before and he could not work without them. So My darling Fidel was still helping someone in need. I live in an apartment now, not by choice, my house burned down 1 month and 11 days after Fidel died. So I lost everything. At 2:00am Fidel, woke me up saying honey wake up, get up Pat. Still keeping an eye on me. If he hadn't woke me up I would have died in the house fire. What I'm saying is if you feel angry, lost, that's part of the healing process. If you want to treasure his memory, start over, be strong not because you have to but because of all that you shared with your husband. Use the strength he made you feel. Draw on his strength that he shared with you. This is a new start for you, a new chance. I am sure he would not want you to give up. Feel sorry for yourself, get angry at him for dieing, get angry at God for taking him from you, God, understands and already knows what you're feeling. All you have to do is Put it in God's hands. It does get easier, not over night, but day by day.

Your new Friend, Patricia We've all been through losing someone we love, we're here for you.

Thanks for listening and being here for me i need that. And please pray for my brother 44 yrs 2 months ago dx with brain cancer stage 4 but he is going to be positive, I am with him 100 % but can you beleave that my brother was givibg me comfort with my husband was sick via the phone and now my brother is sick. My first colonoscopy is for the 6 of oct wish me luck on the drinking part.

hugs to all

michelle