I am the primary caregiver for my fiance. We cant afford to get married because it would COMPLETELY mess up our finances for the pending social security. Though the lady at the SS office said AFTER he is approved and starts getting checks my finances wont affect the amount too much. He is diabetic with all the complications of a 75 year old man. It's SOOooo stressful and time comsuming and .. well just plain hard to do. Between the dietary needs, keeping track of 13 meds PLUS 2 kinds of insulin, attempting to get him out of the house once in a while, and trying to working to pay for fun stuff like rent and food.. it's mind numbing. Although we went to a Dr appt today to a new clinic and i was praised on being so well organized about all the varous info. That felt cool.
I dont know, i guess i just get frustrated because I turn 30 in three weeks and have been dealing with this for a couple of years now. I know its hard for him too because he misses out on so many social gatherings due to his lack of mobility. Video games are fun, every day for years? Not so much. Last time i went and saw my birthson he yelled at me because my fiance couldnt come. My birthson wanted to show off his new knowledge of cool snakes and cars but since he couldnt come I was deemed useless. (girls cant possibly be geeks in his brain.. hey he's seven... he will get better LOL)
Also trying to explain to friends, and even worse, social service people that "yes it really is THAT bad" and "no i am NOT making this up" is making me crazy. Heck, the lawyer i went to to gauge our chances about getting him on disability actually scolded me about being a Lolita dating an old man until I yelled "HE IS TWENTY-EIGHT". He is younger than me!
le sigh, I am rambling. I appologize. Thank you for listening / reading
