Candle Story for My father Rodger

kimberly819 made this candle.

Hi i just lost my father on august 30, 2009 to COPD. He was only 53 years old.I took care of him, he lived with me. He struggled for four long years to try to breathe. In April of 2008 he had a heart attack because his heart worked so hard to get oxygen to the organs that where starving. Every sense he just continued to get worse. He couldn't walk, he starting aspirating so they had to put a a feeding tube in him because he couldn't eat or drink by mouth. He would get confused with day and nite. He would think that he was some where other than where he really was. They had to install a pace maker and defribulator in him. He got anixety really bad and was not able to sleep at nite. He had to start wearing diapers. He got so week you could hardly hear his voice when he tried to talk and he spent over 80% of his last year in a half in the hospital. He really suffered, their was not one day that went by even when he was in the hospital that i didn't go see him three times a day and spend at least 2 hrs at a time with him. I love my daddy more than anything and my heart goes out to anyone that loses someone they love to COPD. My daddy was my best friend. My heart is just tore into because he is no longer here with me and i just do not know how to cope with it. I know that he suffered so much but it does not ease my pain. i know that sounds selfish but its the truth. i have not been able to go back to work because all i do is cry. I had to be the strong one while he was here and stand by his side to show him he wasn't having to go through this alone. Now i am lost. I dedicated this to my loving father "It broke my heart to lose you, but you didn't go alone,for part of me went with you, the day god called you home!"